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Saturday, February 11, 2012Now, this is actually an actual problem that I have been having. Family problems. The main thing for me is that I no longer feel the joy of returning home after a long day outside. I feel more at home with friends rather than with family. I guess it's probably because my dad have not been very involved in my life before while my mum has been really very busy lately to care about me. Well, usually this would not really have bothered me but the main thing is that bitch elder sister that I have. This is what have been causing problems for me. An elder sister that does not act like a elder sister but acts as a GOD/EMPEROR/KING of the house. I FUCKING had enough of this shit. I am dead serious. The problem is that I cannot directly address this problem because of that stuck up attitude of hers. Raise your voice to her... RUDE! Do not want to open the door for her when she bloody has her own keys... RUDE! I have enough of all this. The thing is that I have put up with her pompous attitude for a very very long time. Since young actually but I was too naive then to care about this but you know, I am bloody 18 years old going on to 19. I really cannot stand it when she does not treat us like her brother and sister and more like a slave. I mean seriously, accidentally banged my chair to cause her to be pinched between my chair and her table and she starts hitting people. Please, if you do not want anymore accidents, bloody turn your body to the other side of the table. I really want to vomit every time she demand something. Oh, you want you room, you want your personal space, then bloody give others their own room and own space before demanding it. You do not allow people to use your stuff, do not let me or my younger sister to lie down on your bed yet you choose to sleep on my bed every night when you could just sleep on your own bed and the only excuse you can give is that you cannot do work on your bed or oh oh I have not showered, very dirty. So just because you are fucking dirty you can sleep on others bed. Another thing, when you do not want people to crowd around your computer table, have you ever thought that others also need their own space. Every bloody day, I sit in front of my computer table, to my left, my younger sister's computer table, on my right is yours and yet you choose to slouch in such a way that you trap me within this small area. Well, that is not the worst thing. When I want to leave the area and HAVE to push pass you. You just shout OIIIIII DAMN RUDE LEH. So what am I expected to do huh? FUCK YOU SERIOUSLY!!!! I AM BLOODY BETTER OFF WITHOUT YOU AS A SISTER, LEAVING ME TO CLEAN UP ALL THE BULLSHIT YOU LEAVE AROUND THE HOUSE, TAKING THE BLAME FOR MAJORITY OF THE STUFF THAT YOU DONE BUT DO NOT WANT TO ADMIT. I AM FUCKING SICK OF IT. IF ONE DAY YOU WERE TO FIND ME FUCKING HIT YOU AND LEAVE THE HOUSE DO NOT BE SURPRISE. IT WILL JUST BE LIKE EGYPTIANS FREEING THEMSELVES FROM GADDAFI'S RULE. THANK YOU GOOD BYE!weixiang froze in time on 5:22 AM
Friday, December 9, 2011This year, there have been many things happening that makes me think more about life. Many of such events mainly includes the death of family and friend's family which led me to thinking, is life worth living? There are 4 words that is usually used to describe life. Birth, Ageing, Illness and ultimately Death but are we given life just to wait for death or something more which set me thinking what is the meaning of life. Is it really and truly just waiting for death or is there something more? Personally, I feel that life is indeed something more than just waiting for death. If death is ultimately the outcome of life then we should do something to make your life worth living and what I feel that everyone can do is take life easy. To take life easy is not an easy thing to do, especially when the world is so fast paced and busy. However, I would like to think that it is the little actions that can bring about a change in your busy schedule that allows you to relax and think about life instead of just work work work. It was not until a few days before my A lvls that I was thinking of such an issue. Being overwhelm by stress of the possibilities of me not scoring for my exams, I actually almost fell into depression. What made me changed was the mindset. To me, I starting realising that it was not that I have not done enough but it is just that everyone is different and that the paper is not made specifically to maximise your potential but is just a general test for everyone taking them. I started realising that while some people are not good in certain areas, they are talented in others. It just the mindset that makes a difference to how you approach life and if u just tweak that a little, it can make a whole deal of difference. I was just watching a documentary about Africans yesterday and I realise that despite the hardship that they are going through, poor, poorly educated and living in horrible conditions, they still managed to take things slow and enjoy every nights with songs and dances which is something that we find it hard to do. So what we can do is to do small stuff that you enjoy and change your mindset cause even Africans can do so and not think about their hardship, why can't us? Secondly, it is how we do things in our life. Not everything can go according to how you planned and it is how you try to adapt to the changes that counts. Predictions itself is never accurate and one can never truly prepare themselves for any situation in life. So what can we do about it? All we can do is compromise and adapt. People always wonder why I seem not to care about my future and stuff. What I always say is that I just go with life because life itself is something that we cannot prepare for. We will face many challenges and meet people who will disagree with you but what can you do. Would u let the challenges take u down or would u rather approach it in another way? What if you had differentiated opinions about certain issues. Are you going to continue standing by your point and suffer your whole life or accept other opinion, compromise and make changes so that u do not have to ponder about it any longer. If everyone can compromise and not be so demanding about how to do things, everyone benefits. Who giving in and adapting 2 different ideas can every bring about a better outcome. Lastly, what we can do is to appreciate the precious ones around us. My friend mother just passed away and he is only 18 with a 12 year old sister. They do not even have the chance to repay their mother for the devotion and love that she had showered her with. Even if you hated your family members and friends, we should still show our appreciation in one way or another. Nowadays, despite not having good communications with my father, I still say thank you for the little things he does and whenever I get on to his taxi, I will try to ask about the days. My close friends who know that I HATED some of my relatives to the core, what I have to say is that I would like to thank them for the chance to show me what the true side of a person can be like and taught me how to avoid being like them. Everyone will surely teach you one thing. While my father do not openly show his love for us, I know that he still cares or else he would not even have bothered to buy us breakfast, lunch or dinner. He would not even bother paying bills and would have left us on our own. All I want to truly say is that while they may have put u down, have u considered the stuff that they have given u. Be it good or bad, there are things to be learnt and thus we need to thank them for all that there is. That is pretty much I want to say about life. weixiang froze in time on 12:39 PM
Friday, November 5, 2010Alright, it has been a while since i last posted. Now for certain updates1) Well, most importantly, I am promoting to J2 with 4 H2 Subject. ( Applause :P) Apparently, my JCT grade for Econs manage to pull my over grade up and also my tutor who was generous in giving us very very very good marks for class participation :D 2) Today's my Birthday :D Well technically should be yesterday but I was so shagged that I slept through the whole day. :X Apparently, I didn't get wished for half the day cause my facebook account settings. Haha. 3) WR & I&R is OVER! Left OP, final part of our PW road. Learnt many things from it but got a very weird habit now. Since my PW is on high heels stuff. I keep looking at people's feet to see what type of shoes are they wearing. :X Anyway, I realised something. The nearer I stay to a place, the higher the tendency for me to be late... Well, I had to go for detention twice this term. Once for term 3 and one for term 4... Anyway, this probably hinders my OGL applications and this lead me to my other problem... My floorball tutor just told us after we submitted our application that we are not allowed to join OGL! I mean, what's his problem. Want us to focus on our training also don't need to limit us to doing what we want to do right? What's the point of going to a Junior College that doesn't allow you to experience different things just because of PDP? I mean, this is the point of time where whatever you do is crucial for your admission to university and getting a scholarship. Argh... I have nothing to say... Haiz, what to do... Conditioning training after OP will sure be a killer. So far only had 1 PE lesson. Kinda lazy to train myself at home also. Haiz. Want to sleep soon alr. If i remembered anything new I'll add into this post also or the next. Haha. BB Okay, I just remember something after posting this. Haha. Recently very addicted to "whose line is it anyway". Great laughs so if u need cheering up, go watch it. No harm done :D weixiang froze in time on 2:38 AM
Thursday, October 14, 2010Well, got back 3/5 of my promos paper already. Well, they are not really awesome but yeah, at least I get to promote. Been considering which subject to drop to H1 recently. Considering how I want to get into a science course in future, I guess it is probably Econs even though I may be penalising myself. ( Econs CSQ becomes of a greater percentage ) But well, for my future, guess that will be the choice., unless I manage to miraculously pass econs. Anyway, today during pw rehearsal period was dam crap. Some teacher apparently decided to crap ronald's group up. Before they even start start to criticise them already... Please la, it's like their second rehearsal, what do u expect. Anyway, teacher whole day teach us to respect the speaker but wth is the tutor doing interrupting wen ying when she is presenting... How do you expect us to follow examples if you do this. Haizz. PW is screwing my life up. Sleep pattern totally messed up. Just ytd i was like going to collapse at 3-5pm and at 1 am, i was quite awake. :X How do I get my sleep pattern back. Haizz...weixiang froze in time on 4:50 PM
Saturday, October 9, 2010To start of, I would like to share this videoWhy did I want to share this video. Well, recently promos was just over and yeah, many people may feel dejected and stuff. Personally, I'm quite pissed with some subjects but well, life still goes on. This video was actually quite meaningful. I am sure many people actually feel this way before and I hope that this really motivate you. It doesn't matter if you are a failure in your life or that your life is a mess, there is always someone that will always need you to be there in your life. Recently, I have been watching shane dawson's video cause I find them really meaningful and you know really transmit a message across about youth. Anyway, Promos, quite "crappy", kinda make you feel pointless in studying so hard when they set paper that we do not understand... but whatever, it's over, now it shall be PW and more PW and prepare for next year. So after thursday promos, me, ronald, lihao and de xun did a very crazy thing. We were searching for a place to eat and ended up walking from bedok interchange all the way to somewhere near my house. Okay, not that far but walking that distance just for lunch when there are a lot of places at the interchange and also outside our school. Haha. Friday, Friday, Friday. Went to a kbox session with Des, Tim, Kwok. Quite a long time since I went there. Went to their new room, really awesome!! So Japanese. XD So we were singing songs, Desmond was rapping really awesomely. Kwok Yang was being evil by singing the song that the room next door was singing ( Their singing was really horrible though ). Anyway, our system crashed twice. Ended up getting a 30 min extension. Had fun eating sushi too. Haha. Thanks guys! Well, to end off, I've revived this blog! Haha, will try to update weekly. Yeah, probably be all about PW. Good Luck to all that are still taking their exams, collecting their results and of course those taking A level soon. :D weixiang froze in time on 11:36 AM
Saturday, March 6, 2010Okay. This post would be to please kwok yang since he has been spamming my cbox for updates. 1 Thing for u. I won't be updating cause I don't get to use my comp much!!! Now for the main things. A few weeks before I am just a guy starting my JC life. Now? I am still the guy just starting my JC life but there is something different. 1st, Met my class CG 25/10, which is one of the most awesome class ever. 2nd, Got in to floor ball which means more running and exercise, something good for me. 3rd, to be continued cause was called to go back to school...weixiang froze in time on 8:02 AM
Monday, February 1, 2010Alright, Reported to school at 7am cause the OGLs asked us to but end up cannot go in... So we went early for no reason. Supa fun day. Totally non-stop gaming. Haha, 1st was the cheering thing then showed us some performance by wu shu and dance which I am not really interested in but nice job ^^ More cheers followed due to the cheering session. After which, we went for break after announcements. Then next was the exciting stuff. Games. Hehe, okay 1st game didn't get to play but fun, a whole row of chairs with flour and water on them so u have to bounce with ur butt from chair to chair and when u meet u have to play scissors paper stone. Almost lost a couple of time but ended up manage to win them forcing them all the way back so ended with a tie. So the deciding round was a round of scissors papers stone. WE WON! GO OG3(a) Hehe. Okay after that was some balloon game. Need tie balloon in between 2 person ankle. Me and my friend tie wrongly which became some strategy but cause we losing, we need to move end up the string broke and the balloon got burst by them. Lost but nvm. Haha. so next was something like pass the msg in terms of actions so the last person have to guess. I got all the weird action passed to me so the last person had no idea what the hell i am doing. Lost but had fun cause all the weird actions. hehe. Next was the Sponged captainball. Was the captain so stood on the chair. Had really good members which helped the team score like quite a few times. I didn't catch properly sometimes. T.T but the other team scored 1/0. Dno la. XD WON! WOO. Hehe. Really like to thank the people cause they did most of the work. OG3 HOT OR NOT? HOT! XD Okay, next was wet game. Some sliding game. Have to take off my specs so i am like blind. 500-600 degree. hehe. Okay have to spin like 5 rnds then run to the next cone and spin again then glide till the other side across the wet mat. Fun leh. Got to do twice. XD So fun but no more alr. So got break followed by the next game. Have to do duck walk 1st, basically just blend low and walk. Then need cross this web thingy, at 1st scared la so slowly then start jumping like mad and at the end of the web, i just drop to the ground and roll. Ouch! then some station master so evil pour water on me but shiok AR! So hot water splash on u. XD next got more cheering followed by lunch with OG. Quite tired alr so didn't talk much. After that was mass dance, song? S club by S club 7 but editted b4 i think. Anyway, super chim. till now still cannot rmb. Hopefully on thurs got ppl to follow. Hehe. Next was OG bonding time. Learnt more cheers and suppose to brainstorm for some stuff but so tired, split into 4 group and my group is like dead. Sad. Anyway, the rest was quite boring. Took 229 to interchange to buy yellow shirt but i dno it will loop so i alighted early. Ps desmond. So need walk to interchange... Desmond bought socks at pasa malam ( dno how spell ) and we bought shirts at Hang 10. GO HANG 10. XD Anyway, i showed my mum my arms when she reach home. She was like ,"what happened?" Want to see? here is a picture of my arm(below) against my sis(above) Until now still feel hot. :X tmr amazing race. Excited ^^ GOGOGO! weixiang froze in time on 8:32 PM
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